sick.

i am sick of ricola drops. i am sick of tea. i am sick of my job and almost all of the people there. i am sick of people generally, with about 5 or 6 exceptions.

that last one was particularly exacerbated this morning. as i walked to the bus stop, i saw people ahead of me walking around something. that something turned out to be a homeless guy laying in the middle of the sidewalk. now, i'm as jaded as the next girl; if dude was merely laying in an alley, i would have kept on walking, told myself that he was just sleeping (one off), and convinced myself that there was nothing much i could do anyway. but this guy was in the middle of the sidewalk, and he was kind of twitching. i asked him if he needed to go to the doctor, and he didn't appear to hear me at all. so i called 911, and stayed until the firetruck arrived. the cops and firemen managed to sort of rouse the guy, but it took some doing, and he didn't look well. and when i got on the bus, i could still see a medic trying to communicate with him, and not getting very far. said cops and firemen were obviously annoyed that they were called out to deal with the situation, and they equally obviously thought i was some kind of bleeding heart naif for calling them. (i recognize the redundancy in that sentence, but bear with me; i'm too busy trying not to cough up a lung to worry about syntax.) totally fucking rude macho bullshit. but i'm not mad at them; they still did their job. i am extremely disappointed with all of the people before i got there who didn't do anything. yeah, maybe he was drunk. but who the fuck knows? he could have had a concussion, or a seizure, or worse. and ok, even if they didn't care, even if they could not give a shit about some smelly black homeless guy, they also completely don't care about the many young children who live in the neighborhood.

i am merely extremely fucking frustrated with school.