the ice storm

i'm over it now, but this evening has been a real bummer. i lost my wallet AGAIN. it's fine, no cash was in there, and almost everything else can be replaced and has been cancelled. almost. i won't whine about the details, but it's a minor misfortune. i never learn. i'm only capable of being a responsible adult for maybe six hours of every day, tops.

and then there is the weather. NOT ZESTY. i love snow. i hate ice storms. the tv is currently advising that there is a "winter storm warning," a "blizzard warning," AND a "flood warning" all happening in the vicinity right now. what the fuck?

and then my itunes had a bit of a meltdown. which should not be important to me, but so totally is.

and then there's this. god help us all. (courtesy of goldenfiddle)

at least jess, my nearest and dearest, is in town. i fear that due to travel delays, my work, her work, and this stupid weather, i won't see her as much as i would like, but we've already gotten some eating and laughing in, and i'm not worried. but i was just so, like, lethargic and cranky for a couple of hours tonight. there's just a lot going on right now and i think the seams are starting to show.

you know what made me feel better? the arcade fire. i don't care if it sounds cheezy. i looked up and i saw them on the tv and i was transfixed. i didn't even feel bad about all the times i've missed seeing them for real. and i don't really have all that much allegiance to their first album, as accomplished and special as it was. but they were just so..passionate. not new-emo dramatics but real fervor. like everything could break down at any second. like neutral milk hotel.

you know what also makes me feel better? thinking about yesterday. i went running and i went further south and east than usual, which caused me to see homes and restaurants and schools that i hadn't before. part of why i went further south and east was to cut across on milwaukee at the end, which is when i came upon 826chi, the chicago outpost of dave eggers' young-person mind-expansion/confidence-building enterprise. right in-between stop smiling HQ and neighborhood housing services, where i worked last fall. i guess it just opened, and i didn't even know it was there. SOOO cute. i have only been to the nyc location, and like that one, 826chi is configured as a "secret agent supply store." (i.e. "the boring store. i.e. "not a secret agent supply store." GAAAH!) maybe it was the endorphins talking, but reading about all of the inventive and inclusive tutorials and presentations and sessions they've got going on, i started crying. i seriously did. it's just such an ambitious, hopeful undertaking. and i'm just another asshole with a law degree. to that point, the only reason why i even went down milwaukee in the first place was to check out the american apparel store, which, for a variety of reasons, is not what i need to be caring about.

anyway, various friends, thanks for your well-wishes over the past couple of days. re: the wallet-losing and also the big, confusing job interview i have next week. YOU ARE THE BEST.